Don't ever bother reading. Seriously.

 This is more of a rant than anything, so beware before you even read. It's horrible and I'm ashamed that I am so full of hate, but this is what happens when it stays in.
I am in a pissy mood. So it is all coming out.

I hate money. It is the worst thing ever. I hate how hard it is to me and how we have to pay out of pocket to move back to Indiana, but things didn't get in order in time for it to be any other way..but "supposedly" we will get reimbursed... (just like we were told before..) so cross your fingers it really happens.. because we need the money to get a house back in Indiana. If we don't get this money back, I will scream.. maybe. lol.

One thing: I am so glad that Ben and I did not have any kids with anyone else. Two: If we did, I would NEVER treat Ben's other child like he/she was nothing. That is the most messed up thing I have seen in awhile, but sadly I know more than one person who does this. How can you live with yourself for being so cruel? Seriously, its disgusting to even know someone can be that way towards a kid and be so jealous of a kid. You should feel completely ashamed.

I don't wanna go home and listen to Ben's ignorant family. I WILL NOT deal with it anymore. I want this to be the last thing ever of them. I don't want anyone calling me to ask about Alex.. How about ya make JR grow up some and take him off your tit? Sounds like a good idea to me :) He needs to take care of his own stuff..not all of you. But enough about him, I'm glad I married someone with some sense out of that family.  Ben does exist you know, not just JR..  and JR will never make anything out of himself, so please stop trying to baby him every step of the way. You make Ben feel worthless at times, but I am glad he realizes he is so much better than any of you.

I am over dumb ignorant people on my facebook. How some people are and how they got there is beyond me. One thing I learned about since I have became an adult and seen more than Indiana? Is that too many people forget where they came from. Indiana is not the horrible part of your experience.. its how you make your situation. Stuck up people I freaking swear. I love Indiana, it is a beautiful place. YES, people do meth and other drugs... but can you name ONE place that people don't do that? Yeah, didn't think so. Don't do it and leave it be, simple as that. Just because people do drugs does not mean its a bad place, if that's the case... then the world is horrible and none of us should live in it. But seriously, stfu and quit saying "Oh I am so glad I got out of that place, its just so horrible" yeaaaaaah, no one cares.


Days like these I want to scream. Trying to pack is horrible. Jason does nothing but whine anymore and I am trying to keep my cool on this, but it is hard. I am exhausted. I am not a super person who can do everything 24/7.  Being a stay at home mom/wife is NOT easy. BUT I love Jason more than anything and I am so blessed that I am able to see him as often as I do and with him 24/7....but seriously, I am allowed to say I am exhausted. Get over it.


I hope no one reads this, because then they see how I have lost it,lol. I can only take so much and today is just not the day for me.

Maybe tomorrow..?